DecemberThirtyone!(:

2011-01-25T06:47:00.001-08:00

Sometimes,it's just too much for me to handle. :'(

It's one year baby!:D

2010-09-07T03:29:00.000-07:00

050909

celebrated our first annivesary on saturday!
candlelight dinner at prive restaurant at keppel bay!awesome!:D
its a wonderful experience!:D love it!:D

2010-07-07T09:01:00.000-07:00

Sometimes,i feel so far away from my friends
sometimes,i feel so far away from my family
sometimes,i feel so far away from my boyfriend

2010-06-07T09:57:00.000-07:00

Finally done with my ppt!
up next,presentation on friday!:/

Can i just stay at home for the whole day tmr?:(

Jac!You need to save!STOP Spending!

7's!
Some of you are having hols' now.
Plan some meetups leh!
Everytime i plan very tired leh :(
Miss you girls!:(

2010-05-18T13:05:00.000-07:00

I used to think that,i know many things.
Now i came to realise that,actually,i dont.
I used to think that,im always unlucky.
But actually,im considered lucky enough.
I used to think that,i understand myself more than anyone else.
But i realise that,i dont know many things about myself.
I used to think that,as long as you work hard for sth,you'll get it eventually.
But now,i dont think it that way.
I used to think that,everyone has got a nice element on them.
Actually,some dont.
I always feel that,im living on earth(i know i am).
Now,i feel like i live on mars.
I used to think that,its easier to laugh than you cry.
Now i realise that,its the other way round.
I used to...

2010-05-09T09:47:00.000-07:00

This weekend is not as good as last week's.
Had a 'fight' with love regarding of some issues.
But still,i had fun with 7's.
Though i didnt spend much time with them.But still had fun.(:
Mother's day at bf's granny's was great!:)
His granny is so damn cute i swear.
Each time we go,she'll feed us with food,food and more food!Lol!:D

Last but not least,jess and fei,if you see this,cheer up!:D

2010-05-03T09:19:00.002-07:00

I love how this weekend pass.
So happy,so fun!:D
I Lurbe you Mangkok!:D
I love the way you smile to me,
I love the way you care for me,
I love the way you kiss me,
I love the way you hug me,
I love the way you held my hands,
Every single detailed things that you did,
very gently,very sweet of you.
I love you baby(:

双子星 Theme song [寂寞光年 - 刘力杨]

2010-05-03T09:19:00.000-07:00

This song made me tear :'(

2010-04-29T09:56:00.000-07:00

i emo la. :(

2010-04-28T09:50:00.000-07:00

it will be great if life is like drama/movie.
it always end with a happy ending.

MC Mong - Dalmation love (Eng Sub)

2010-04-28T09:34:00.000-07:00

2010-04-27T06:06:00.000-07:00

work or no work also got problem.sigh.
whats wrong???
im so tired.SO TIRED!
argh!
what on earth do they want from me???

2010-04-22T08:36:00.000-07:00

Today is the 22nd.which means im getting my pay next week!:D
so many things to get.and an important event to work on from 2 weeks later onwards(:

been quite busy lately.no time for myself.sigh.
work work work work work and more work.
and of course,school. -.-

work has been pretty smooth and quite fun with erina around!:D
new arrivals today.which totally kept us busy for the whole day,w/o rest.
and,ya,i now quan sheng suan tong. :(
think im gonna fall sick soooon.

anyways,i miss 7's!havent been meeting them for the past two weeks.
no fate.all busy-like-a-bee. :(
faster meet lehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!:(

wah!im so tired!need to pack my bag and sleep now.
seeyou tomorrow mangkok!:D

2010-04-08T11:50:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY AH LEE!:D

Oh man,i miss mangkok~! :(
Tomorrow faster come! :(

Oh,my boss is irritating and ridiculous -.-

And,i think guys/men who think that girls/women are useless is more useless.

I never ask.
I dont dare to ask.
Today,when they quarrel again,
i was actually afraid.
questions appearing in my mind,
'people' telling me what to do,
its scary to feel that way,
that i almost tear.

2010-04-07T10:21:00.001-07:00

I am 70% mentally unstable.

2010-04-04T09:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 7TH MONTH MANGKOK!:D
THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR THE TOP!!!
I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!!:D

anyways,jess's bdae celebration was quite a success!Happy belated 19th again!hope you enjoyed yourself:)and,thank you all for your hard work!:)

27th March,Awesome BBQ!:D

2010-03-28T09:18:00.000-07:00

It was very successful!:D
I enjoyed myself.Hope you guys did too!:)
Thank you mande and your mum for the stingray!
Thank you mamad and love for being a good chef!
Thank you jessica for your thongs!
Thank you feiyan,peishan,melissa,chow,gayle,vonne and me(hehe!) for helping out!
Thank you everyone for making the BBQ AWESOME!:D
Happy Birthday in advance jess!:D

2010-03-26T10:59:00.000-07:00

Pictures of some event(:

Fyi,he wearing my hairband.Lol!So cute right?:D

2010-03-22T11:02:00.000-07:00

I MISS YOU

I MISS YOU~

I MISS YOU~!

I MISS YOU~!!

I MISS YOU~!!!

I MISS YOU~!!!!

I MISS YOU~!!!!!

TO : MK SOH

2010-03-05T20:19:00.000-08:00

Happy 6 months!:D

Im always here for you k!:D

2010-03-02T09:10:00.000-08:00

Im glad that things are better now.(:

anyways,i've quit my job,hoping to focus on my studies.

BUT!now,i need a job again.lol.

i need moolahhhhhhhhhhhh~

i got test tomorrow.i got test tomorrow.i got test TOMORROW!

but i've studied.just need to do more revision(sssssssssssssssss).

Oh,and i think,avenged sevenfold is awesome!:D

you had my heart,at least for the most part
cause everybody's gotta die sometime
we fell apart,lets make a new start
cause everybody's gotta die sometime
but baby dont cry

2010-02-18T06:50:00.000-08:00

it doesnt feel like the past anymore.im tired.i dont know what to do anymore.i feel sad to see that things turn out like this.sigh.you dont seem like you even care.why?this is not my first time feeling so stress during this period of time.it happened a few times but i didnt really mention about it.i just kept quiet.because i know if i bring it up,we'll quarrel again.i dont know how long more can i hold on to it.but i will still try my best to hold on to it.

2010-01-26T07:39:00.001-08:00

I HATE YOU

2010-01-11T22:04:00.000-08:00

The Important one(s) in my life!:D

2010-01-05T09:07:00.000-08:00

31st december was a great day!:D (although it wasnt great during the day)
anyways,thank you to all who wished me thru fb,msg,phone calls.tysm(:
got my first present from mum early in the noon when i woke up.
followed by collin's and ang bao from mum and dad.
ang bao was the best!:D
heh!我比较现实. :D
cabbed down to hougang to meet love.
auntie gave me an ang bao 2 days before my birthday(:
while love gave me something sweet!:D
love it!:D
so went shopping at fep and gave xw a lil' surprise when she was at work.(:
then to fish and co at the glass house.
it was REALLY FUN!:D
most importantly,everyone was there!:D
all my love ones!:D
7's gave me a headphone and a very cute dress that i want!:D
seriously!i love them!:D tysm!:D
shall post my funny picture when im not lasieeeeeee~ :D

alright.shin has flew back to korea to get some new stocks.
xw and i really feel like quitting.
its a quite stressful job.
her expectations are high.
but our pay is not very high.
i need another job~!:(

oh yes!
HAPPY 4MONTH LOVE!:D

DONT!

2009-12-30T06:58:00.000-08:00

a birthday that doesnt feel like its approaching.
im gonna shop until i happy tomorrow!

Bitching is our life

2009-12-18T09:07:00.000-08:00

What is wrong with me?like seriously.
what the hell is wrong with me??
i am so not understanding.
hate it hate it hate it!
the more it happens,the more i find myself not suitable for you.
aishhhhhhhhhhh!

anyways,i had an awesome day with my darlings!:D
meet up soon!:D

2009-12-16T20:37:00.000-08:00

already expected that THAT would happen.its only a matter of time.chill people.on the other hand im rather glad that im not there though.
thats why i hate it when i meet people who are over c_______t.
they will behave like they are always right.
argh.
okay i know,none of my business.chill.

it made me think.
what do i really really want in my life?
what am i good at?
why am i here?
and the only answer that was in my mind was,nothing.
nothing for all the three questions.

as time goes by,i realised that im not good enough for you.
i should have realise it in the beginning.i know.
but,oh wells.

WhatTheFuck

2009-12-06T07:31:00.000-08:00

seriously,what the fuck?
yes,a question mark.
is there a problem for me not knowing stuffs??
because of you,i hate the word stupid.
S T U P I D
i really feel like talking back to you at that point of time.
but i tried my very best to calm myself down.
and on the other hand,cause of the word respect.
R E S P E C T
i have moodswings after i come menses every month.
yes,im weird.
and whats wrong with guys/mens recently??
having pms too??
arghhhh!
only baby's normal.(:

im emotional now :'(

2009-11-25T09:06:00.000-08:00

I HATE YOU!
LEAVE ME ALONE!

on the other hand,i miss baby:(

2009-11-11T01:31:00.000-08:00

i'll be meeting baby in two more days!:D

Warmness on the soul-Avenged Sevenfold
Your hazel green tint eyes watching every move I make.
And that feeling of doubt, it's erased.
I'll never feel alone again with you by my side.
You're the one, and in you I confide.
NO(oh-oh-oh)
And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your loves always been true as can be.
I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.(Woh-oh-oh)
And we have gone through good and bad times.
But your unconditional love was always on my mind.
You've been there from the start for me.
And your loves always been true as can be.
I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.(Woh-oh-oh)
I give my heart to you.
I give my heart, cause nothing can compare in this world to you.(Woh-oh-oh)

2009-11-09T08:44:00.000-08:00

Finally met baby on friday.
ahah!botak!
miss him so much.
spent my weekends with him.
and now he's back in tekong.
looking forward to every friday now. (:

anyways,im currently addicted to seize the day by avenged sevenfold!:D
what a nice song with a very meaningful lyrics and music video. (':
love it!thanks to mk soh!:D
oh ya,their warmness on the soul is nice too!:D
so,here's the lyrics of seize the day:
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here,
too many people to ache over
I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past
I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you
I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry(a melody, a memory, or just one picture)
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here,
too many people to ache over
Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?
I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here,
too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real
So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see
I beg don't leave me
Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here,
too many people to ache over
Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real
Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day [x2 then continues in the background]
I stand here alone
Falling away from you,no chance to get back home
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home

2009-11-05T08:58:00.000-08:00

tomorrow!
tomorrow!
Tomorrow!
Tomorrow!
TOMORROW!:D

Finally~!
woohoooooooo!:D

2009-11-03T08:48:00.000-08:00

Disappointed,but yet,expected.
after knowing/after what i saw,
i've got only one word to say.
disappointed.
tsktsktsk.

anyways,today's sales was alright(:
yesterday was bad.
friday was great!:D

3 more days.
baby,i miss you!
i wont leave you alright.
like you said,im your wife
you're my husband(:
i love you deep deep deep okay!:'D

if you gave me one chance to tell you how i was feeling,
i would sing to you,and tell you i wont,live my life without you.
if you gave me one chance to tell you how i was feeling,
i would hold your hand,and look in your eyes,and you know i'll never let you go(':

9 more days

2009-10-28T00:06:00.000-07:00

im tired.my body's tearing apart.
im very very tired.
of everything,of being who i am.
of being the *ohsocheerful* jac.
of meeting selfish and irritating people.
simply tired.
but yet,i know i have to perservere and stay strong.
i miss baby alot. :'(
more than you can think.
i really wish that he's here with me.
i feel glad that i got a cute mum.
trying to do stupid stuffs to make to smile.
mummy i love you. :')

cant help but think,of the times i've had with you
pictures and some memories will have to help me through
:'(

Day 5

2009-10-26T09:54:00.000-07:00

11 more days to go.
its torturing!:'(
baby,i miss you!:'(
i've been thinking of you everyday,
oh god,please let time pass asap!:(

2009-10-22T10:09:00.000-07:00

Dear God

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can't help but wish that I was there
And where I'd love to be, oh yeah
Dear God the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again, oh no
Once again
There's nothing here for me on this barren road
There's no one here while the city sleeps
And all the shops are closed
Can't help but think of the times I've had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again
Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
When hope begins to fade...
A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love
Hope is hard to find
Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again

Lost Without You

2009-10-22T03:30:00.000-07:00

stayed over at hubby's house ytd night.
accompanied him to tekong for his oath-taking ceremony together with his family this morning.
he teared in the morning.so did i.
sigh.for two weeks,i wont be seeing him
i wont know what he's doing during the day until when he call/text me at night.
no one's gonna wake up just to check whether im alr up ready to go for work.
no one's gonna hold my hand tightly when i cross the road.
look out for me and stuffs.
everything,everything.
baby,
i used to think that those girls who cry when their love ones going ns,
are crasiee.
but now,i know why.
i understand how they feel.
y'know,when i saw you leaving to your bunk,
i feel so lost.
i dont know how to describe how i feel.
just,lost.
im on the verge of bursting my tears out.
but,i dont want you to worry.
when i reach home,tears just kept rolling down my cheeks.
i miss you.very much.
everytime i read the note that you wrote,i tear.
i know how important you are to me and how i am to you.
my heart hurts when i see you cry.
you dont know how much i dont want you to go,
but i have to.there's no choice.
for everything,im gonna wait for you no matter what,
and lastly,i love you(:

In times of happiness,how time flies
Months of fun & laughter pass,in a blink of an eye.
There comes time that we both will be apart,
But no doubt about it,you'll always be here in my heart.
Since we've embarked on this journey,i've always been true.
Everyday spent together is proof that im true to you.
Being with you are the best days of my life.
Without you around,i'll be questioned how i would survive.
This love that we share is sacred and bliss,
Wishing that the days to come will only be better than this.
I truly hope that 'US' will stand the test of time,
And our love to be much stronger at the end of this rhyme.
Promise me,love,that you'd always look out for yourself,
We vibe together as one,like you are my air and i am your health. \/\/

Love U Many Many!!!:D
MangkOk

2009-10-19T09:56:00.000-07:00

today was fun!
went bedok inter for lunch with hubby,mum,bro,aunt valerie and kingston.
took bus to east coast park for cycling.
went for dinner at golden mile.had steamboat!yummy!
cabbed to tampines to meet uncle for chilling session.
i swear that the driver was suparrrr funny!LOL!
then,home sweet home!
fun!i love!:D
tomorrow will be my first day of work at the 'korean boutique'.
nervous?yes.a lil'.
please let tomorrow be a smooth day for me!
pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

2009-10-17T09:28:00.000-07:00

found a new job at far east today,randomly.
the boss seem to be a lil' fierce.
been finding a job for the pass few weeks.
now that i got one,
im actually not very happy.
idk why why why.
sigh.
5bucks/hour. with commission.
my mood now is like,
sian sian sian.
boooooooooooooooooooness~

anyways,i am someone,who think alot.
in every way.

Bless The Broken Road-Rascal Flatts
I set out on a narrow way,
many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Yes He did
I think about the years I spent, just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost, and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there, you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
But now I'm just rolling home into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you(:

2009-10-12T11:12:00.000-07:00

read jess's blog just now.
and,true.
time flies.and i meant flies!
life's a fast game.
everytime,when you enjoying yourselves happily with your love ones,
time will pass as soon as it can.
but when you're going thru the difficult times,
time will go as slow as it can.
sigh.i know.this is life.

last year,i quit school,
then i went shri for my hr course.
start working at tru at mid of november.
everything was well and fine.
celebrated my 17th birthday at the end of december.
it was fun.really.
with all my love ones around(although there are some cockups).
then,danceworks 09' at around march.
birthday celebrations for darlings on their bdae.
went minds cafe at the beginning of july with darls.
happening and damn fun!:D
tru dnd at august.
had fun playing with helium gas!:D
050909 till now,is my happiest time of this year.
you entered my life and became a part of me.
now,the one thing that we have to face,
is the future.
next thursday,you'll be booking in.
for two weeks,i will not be seeing your cute face.
i know that i will miss you for sure.
cause,no one's gonna entertain me like you do.
you're not there to tell me how much you love me every single day
no one's gonna hold my hand when crossing the road
sigh.as you know,
i have already used to seeing your face everyday.
oh gosh,two weeks is like longgggggggg.
baby,always remember,i love you.(:

anyways,please let me find a new job asap!:(

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you
you see how much I need you right now
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

2009-10-08T10:23:00.000-07:00

went for training at farrer park today.
will be starting a new job tomorrow.
but wont be staying long i guess.
but i LOVE the pay!
$8/hour to promote baby milk powder.
hmmmmmmmm.
just hope that there wont be stupid cust asking idiotic qn.
after training,went bugis to get a pair of jeans(for tmr).
then went popeyes with hubby,yani and aidil.
damn full you mei you.
shi bao de lor!
chill here and there,then home sweet home!:D

oh god,please let everything go smoothly tomorrow:(

2009-10-06T22:05:00.000-07:00

i've been enjoying myself for the past few days and now,im sick.
having migranes and stuffs.feel so damn shag.
my body seemed to be tearing apart.
ah.whatever.
anyways,will be changing to another job soon.
real soon.
with a better pay.and i hope better environment(:

your words seems like needles poking thru my heart.and you have no idea how much i teared.sigh.

2009-10-01T11:06:00.000-07:00

out with hubby today!:D
got a bagpack
two eyewear
a pair of earring
a pair of sandals
two top
and a headband!
woohoooo~!
da feng shou! = a big bloody hole in my wallet!
wahah!
anyways,
will be meeting shan and the rest after work tomorrow for dinner!woohoo!:D
goodies!:D

2009-09-30T12:10:00.000-07:00

so much to say.
but yet,
idk how to start.
its too much.

anyways,
people always say,
jac,you must understand.try giving in.
you needa know blahblahblah
you needa understand that blahblahblah.
i know.
i know i have to understand.
thats why i kept quiet and indirectly forced myself to do things that i dont feel like doing.

people will think,
you can just voice out ma.no one's forcing you.
sigh.
but,so what if i voice out?
will things change?
will it make things/situations/people better?
the answer is,
a big F no.
so,just chill and give in(:
true?
thats why,
by shutting my mouth/myself up,
its da best yo!
oh ya,i really agree that
the lesser things you know,
the lesser 'burden' you needa carry.
in short,
its less stressful.

aishh.
whatever.
shhhhhhhhhhh!

shut up!:X

2009-09-26T11:58:00.000-07:00

met lee melissa and jess for dinner at simpang just now.
lee is super crasieeee today.full of crap still though
.oops!:O
anyways,left simpang at nearly 10.
went 511 for 'supper with love then,mummy came down to join us.
chill,chat,smile,laugh with them.
send love to the bus stop at 11+ then back home.
w o w.my mum loves him.yay!:D
will be seeing him tomorrow.double yay!:D

on the other hand.sigh.i have to tahan with some people.aish.nvm.chill jac!tahan and smile!:/
i dont like,dont want to fake it.but this time round,i have to.aishh!smile - > :/

2009-09-25T09:56:00.000-07:00

i hate hate hate that kindaf feeling.i dont like dont like dont like that kindaf situations.aishhhh!
i have to chill chill chill and fake fake fake to smile smile smile.yes!its like wearing a mask!arghh!
CHILL!F!

on a positive side,i'll be meeting my darlings and love for dinner tomorrow!woohoo!:D
look forward!:D

2009-09-20T13:24:00.000-07:00

its 4:30am now.
went for supper at simpang after work with love just now.
chill and chat then home!(:
well,all i can say is,
look forward!:D
and,
loving you more and more as time goes by yo.no joke!:D
will be meeting darlings later on!:D
look forward!;)

nervous
afraid
happy
glad
hoping
:/

2009-09-18T11:49:00.000-07:00

so,dinner yesterday at love's house was great!(:
i love homecooked food yo!:D
his mum is nice!i loike~!nice to talk to too(:
and kept treating me food,food,and,food~

today,he came to meet me for dinner during my break!:D
accompanied me for an hour during work too(:
superduper happy to see his damn cute face!wahah!:O
and,i'll be seeing him tomorrow during work yo!woohoo!:D
2pm faster come!so that i can see my lao gong's face~!

dear,im awaiting for fillintheblanks yo!:D

2009-09-15T13:47:00.000-07:00

i love this song!and i had goosebumps when she sang!:O
Listen
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uBkDkqaH-xk

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release
Oh, the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen
Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened, there is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, I'm screaming out and my dreams'll be heard
They will not be pushed aside on words
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen
Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't
Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but I will complete
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own, my own

2009-09-14T10:12:00.000-07:00

im wondering how i should feel after knowing that.hmm,but,nvm.none of my business yo.

anyways,met love yesterday to ecp for cycling!:D
fun!i loike!but!tiring.my ass is numb.better now though.

looking forward to everyday(:

2009-09-11T11:48:00.000-07:00

met love today!:D
so,went to gabriel's 21st chalet at changi,went to chill after that.
pictures shall talk!:D

ni na me teng wo,bu ai ni ai shui?:O

2009-09-10T10:06:00.000-07:00

i got a cute boyfriend!:D
something really funny happened today.and i was banned from posting out on my blog yo.
hahah!
ask me if you wanna know!:D LOL!

he's cute!im cute too!so together,we're double cutieee!:O :D

2009-09-09T23:21:00.000-07:00

sigh.nvm me.only me,myself,and i,know whats wrong.well,its okai!chill!

i always say,you never voice out,how you want people to know how you feel?whats wrong,and stuffs.
it might be misunderstanding?who knows?

but now,no point explaining,whateveryounameit already.its useless yo.

the used to be(s)

2009-09-06T12:17:00.000-07:00

as what my fb status stated,not talking much/not going craiseee like before,doesnt mean that im in a foul mood or whateveryounameit.its just that my brain is growing.sigh.i know.i need to smile MORE.chill MORE.more,more,and MORE.never mind.

ohyes,if anyone out there got job that offers you for 6/hour,please let me know yo.heh.i need duit!!!
andandand,one more thing.if you guys see transformers t-shirt,with the bling bling logo,let me know PLEASE!!tyvm yo!:D

2009-09-04T12:01:00.000-07:00

woohoo!imma happy girl yo!wahahaha!finally got my watch today.went shopping around at ms and suntec today.manage to get a few things.went to store and,today's definitely not a good day there.oh wells,hope tmr will be a better day yo.

have been meeting my hubby this few days.yes,i see his face every single day and yet i still miss him. :O so,went for dinner after his work and back home at around 10:30.
he'll be meeting me for my dinner break tomorrow yo!yay!:D and next week,i'll be seeing him everyday too.wahahaha!

if you're wondering : do you love him that much?why?
hmm,simply because its just him(: he's one who worries about me more than myself and himself.
and of course,he's sweet!(:
i'll never forget what he told me that day.
he said : 你疯我会陪你一起疯.你cui,我会比你更cui.
and his eyes was teary when he said that.
because of some things that happened,when he told me this,i was touched(duhh),and i almost cry.but i know i cant.cause i know he'll tear together with me.it happened before.so,yup.(:

i love you yo!:D

2009-08-30T12:25:00.000-07:00

hey yo,yes,he confessed to me the other day.i was shocked,but yet,not surprised.and yes,i told him i do like him too.he's nice.he makes me smile and laugh all the time.today,he emo-ed because i was cold to him.am i suppose to be glad or whateveryoucall?now,im wondering,what is he going to tell me tmr,and what im suppose to tell him tmr about today.

rarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.people are telling me : jac,you are falling for him. jac,you're in love with him alr.
and i feel like,huhhhhhhhhh.i dont want!as in.im scared.im afraid.because of ___ y'know.
like arghhh.
and he too,is afraid of falling in love again.
sigh.two person who are afraid of 'love' likes each other(more than a like though).how arh?eeeeeeeeeeshhhhhhhh!
there are lotsa qns in my mind now.i know i shouldnt be worrying and thinking about all these stuffs.but,y'know,cant help it.
shall see how things go tmr yaw.sigh.

2009-08-25T10:41:00.000-07:00

its rather upsetting when i was told about it.but,its okay.well,this is life.people comes and goes.life is never fair.so what if you're happy now?there will still be lotsa difficulties waiting for you ahead.i've learnt to take things easy,to chill more after what happened to me the previous month.i must be glad for what im given and not whine about what im not given.although there are certain things that makes me cant help whining.but still,the same old sentence.life is never fair.so,jac,just smile(:

my darlings,no matter what happens,be it the past,present,or the future,i still thank god to let me know you girls.i might not be in the group anymore or y'know.but still,im glad to have many happy moments with you girls back then(:

2009-08-24T06:03:00.000-07:00

last week,had dnd and chalet.dnd was fun because of the helium balloon.lol!other than that,it was alright.i got a dora luguage(pink) for the lucky draw!when i was receiving the prize,i was like,am i supposed to cry or to laugh?i ask them:i want a DORA luguage for what?what am i suppose to do with it? and kelvin replied:you can go batam with it! LOL!wth right!?!but khai said:okay what.at least you got something!:D true though(: pictures will be up soooon,when im not lasieeeeeee!:D

p.s. are you a gift from god to wipe away all my tears and sadness?

2009-08-13T10:53:00.000-07:00

as time goes by,i feel that im actually not needed by anyone.everyone can live happily w/o me yo.if you guys think that im being emo,i am though.give me some time to chill kay.

p.s. i have to move on

2009-08-08T10:38:00.001-07:00

i had a sucky month.really down on my luck.Fuck it!

2009-08-03T09:11:00.000-07:00

Fuck my life!arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

2009-08-02T12:14:00.000-07:00

so many things happened in my life recently.my life's screwed.i've got so much to do,yet so little time.i really hate myself.i hate myself for my character,for being a tardy queen,for being a useless friend,for being a useless daughter.i know i really really need to change,for my laziness,for my late-ness,for my attitude,for everything.fuck.what have i been doing?arghhhhh.im really on the verge of banging my head my the wall!fwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!:'(

sorry jess for being late that day.i know you're still piss though.really sorry.
sorry peishan for everything.you should know what im referring to though.really sorry.

see,im really good at pissing people off.i've pissed two of my friends off.sigh.i need to change!:'(

okay bye.

2009-07-29T10:46:00.000-07:00

peishan,im sorry for everything.maybe i just didnt realise that it upsets you so much.

2009-07-29T09:14:00.000-07:00

I feel like slapping your fucking face now.you should know who you are.why are you doing/saying things to piss me off?!i sincerely hope that you would read this!arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

i need moneyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!
fwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

2009-07-26T10:43:00.000-07:00

drifting with my darlings again soon.most probably might be taking up two jobs if i can find one more.why?cause i need at least 800-900bucks every month until end of october.or should i say,end of november?sigh.feeling tired of everything lately.its always the same problem.fuck.i've got no choice but to keep working more and more and more.is anyone kind enough to be my masseur?having my backaches again:(

2009-07-22T07:56:00.000-07:00

i've just finishing updating a super long wordy post at the other blog.my eyes are closing soon.and again,i feel super cui.btw,i realised i've got many things to do when i get my pay.my hair,colthes,and other important stuffs.aishhhhhh.i need money!:( anyone who gives me 1k now,i marry that person!:D

i realise courage is a very important thing for everyone.i cried when i saw the video.proud of you!:'D

2009-07-17T09:47:00.000-07:00

feel damn cui.argh!let me have fever please!so that i can stay at home and sleep like nobody's business!

should i feel happy about what has happened?

2009-07-16T09:21:00.000-07:00

Guitar lesson was alright.but i guess mangkok and hakim feel like using the guitar to smash my head.LOL!my finger nails was too long to play guitar so,i had to sacrifice them.but,its okay(: it will grow!:D so went home and kept practising the same basic thing that mk taught me.and i think i improved(after cutting my finger nails)!:D looking forward to the next lesson!:D

speechless.why did things turn out this way?aishhhhh!forget it.chill jac!:D

2009-07-09T10:19:00.000-07:00

i was affected.i hope you didnt mean it anyway.

some people comes and goes in my life.but,im very chilled!:D

hey dear,how are you?yes,i miss you(:

For you, I Dont Care!:D

2009-07-06T12:42:00.000-07:00

Hey playboy
It's about time
And your times up
I had to do this one for my girl you know
That's the only way you boys learn
oh oh, 2NE1oh oh, 2NE1
I can't ever forgive you for that lipstick on your collar
Every day, your phone's always off
It doesn't seem like you're going to change oh oh
All those girlfriends you call "friends"
Don't think of me in the same way as them,
I won't let it fly
From now on, do as you want,
I'm going to stop caring
For some time
I really loved you but oh
Sometimes you get drunk, and call me, now it's 5:30 am
Again you say another girl's name no
I don't care, I'll stop caring about what you're doing wherever you are
From now on I really don't care,
I'll get out of the way
From now on don't come to me and cry, and cling on
cause I don't care e e e e e I don't care e e e e e
cause I don't care e e e e e I don't care e e e e e
Boy I don't care
Stealing glances at other girl's legs
You're so so hopeless
Everyday you take off your couple ring,
and secretly go on a blind date
I don't think that I'll be able to take it anymore oh oh oh
My friends say that you're not really worth it
You even went to your wolf-like friends for advice but
I'd rather keep it simple,
I'm too good for you
I believed you were my love but oh oh
Today you said you were busy,
I tried phoning you but
As expected, in the background I heard a girl's laugh oh no
I don't care, I'll stop caring about what you're doing wherever you are
From now on I really don't care,
I'll get out of the way
From now on don't come to me and cry, and cling on
cause I don't care e e e e e I don't care e e e e e
cause I don't care e e e e e I don't care e e e e e
Boy I don't care
Because of you, I remember crying till dawn boy
I regret every time I think about you when my heart was too easy, huh boy?
I'm too good to throw away and too boring to have
You should've treated me better when we were together why are you clinging to me now
You fooled me with your lies hundreds of times
From today on, I'll be a bad girl who makes guys cry
Now without a single tear, I'll laugh at you
Loser who's inside a game called love
Get on your knees and take me back
If not, get out of my sight right now
I don't care, I'll stop caring about what you're doing wherever you are
From now on I really don't care, I'll get out of the way
From now on don't come to me and cry, and cling on
you know I don't care e e e e e I don't care e e e e e e
cause I don't care e e e e e I don't care e e e e e e
Boy I don't care

hey ladies,wonderful lyrics right?:D

2009-07-03T11:23:00.000-07:00

I had a Great Day today!:D

headed to minds cafe with my 4 darlings today.i swear that we had fun!for more info,please read peishan and melissa's blog.i lazy to type it out.heh.

anyway,2NE1's i dont care is a two thumbs up song!:D
love the lyrics,love the melody,love the song!:D
love cl love dara!:D
i dont care e e e e e i dont care e e e e e ~!:D

super high today!and super happy!woots!:D

anyway,rahman intro-ed this video,its stupid but quite funny.LOL!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v_SmyIMbeQs

2009-07-01T10:37:00.000-07:00

Today is a fun fun fun day!:D
when fun people gets together,there'll be laughters in the air!like what happened today!:D
so,met hajar at 2:30 then yani join us at shengshiong bedok to shop for our home groceries(snacks)!
went for dinner at pizza hut(tm) and transformers 2 with the rest at 7pm!the show was awesome!two thumbs up!:D im in love with bumble bee,the twin and optimus prime~!:D
had a surprise 'party' for faa's belated birthday under peishan's block after the movie.she LOVE the watch man!woots!:D happy belated birthday and love you M1!:D

there's a problem with blogger!i cant upload into my blog!aishhhhhh!:@

2009-06-30T11:08:00.000-07:00

please watch this!supersuper funny!i kept repeating it laughing continuously!LOL!野兽is so cuteeeeeeeee!and of course 阿伟!:D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tnkEEDdbD4w&feature=related

2009-06-29T11:48:00.000-07:00

PAYDAY!:D

im a happy girl recently(and will continue to be one)!:D

and im currently in love with the pokemon song,one,by crystal kay!:D

morning tomorrow and im meeting xie for breakfast!:D

wednesday sheng shiong with hajar and co.,pizza hut,transformers 2!:D

thursday afternoon shift!:D

friday sentosa trip with darlings!:D

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!:D

2009-06-23T09:59:00.000-07:00

OKAY!IM SERIOUSLY VERY PISSED NOW!
BECAUSE,i wanted to upload the grad night video of 4e5 but blogger seems to be very unfriendly!aishhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

anyways,yes.i know im very random want-ing to upload it out of a sudden.reason because,i was very bored just now as i have no work and after meeting melissa and peishan,i rot at home.was browsing thru some vcd(s) and i found our vcd for grad night 07'.i miss 07' though.no.i miss secondary school life!and im seriously serious.my eyes was filled with tears when i browsed thru all the pictures and videos during my sec sch life.and i was listening to the song unbelievable.that made me tear-ed even more.LOL!i know im lame and super random!laugh please!LOL!

oh god,please let me laugh like nobody's business everyday(:

2009-06-20T10:16:00.000-07:00

MELISSA LIM AND JESSICA SER!PLEASE STOP TALKING ABOUT MY BLADDER!LOL!

anyway,work today was fine.and i think,i really need to smile more!smile jac!smileeeeeee!:D

im tired now.*yawns*goodies!:D

2009-06-18T11:23:00.000-07:00

No Boundaries

Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want, but how long can you wait?
Every moment last forever.
When you feel you've lost your way.
What if my chances were already gone?
I started believing that I could be wrong.
But you give me one good reason.
To fight and never walk away.
So here I am, still holding on
With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing.
Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.
I fought to the limit, to stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets?
Don't know where the future's heading
But nothing's gonna bring me down
I've jumped every bridge and I've run every line
I risked being safe but I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am, still holding on
With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
You can go higher, you can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule 'cause there's nothing between you
And your dreams
With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
Yeah, there are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
(:

im glad(:

2009-06-16T14:11:00.000-07:00

Met up with darlings!like after so long.and im glad that everyone's present!:D
pictures will be uploaded when i receive it.(:

anyway,watched 意难忘 this afternoon as mum got the dvd from auntie.and i cried when i watch the ending.婷婷 died due to cancer.i think,the drama is nice.good storyline(although its quite draggy).and im actually discussing about the drama with them just now.LOL!okay.i know im random!:D

if i can turn back the time,i'd rather not know that you had a crush on me. :(

2009-06-14T12:16:00.001-07:00

should i give up?

i guess i will know what to do if i got the ability to read people's mind.but sadly,i dont!:(

2009-06-10T11:46:00.000-07:00

things got worse today.sigh.when is this going to end?though the nightmare has just started.oh man.this is so going to be never ending.i was thinking,why am i blogging about this when you dont even care?but,sigh.i just feel like ranting it out here and not at the other blog which i normally rant over at.yes,i want you to see this.and you dont even mention a single word when you saw me.that upsets me even more.

work today was two thumbs up because i was doing repack for the whole day and time pass supdup fast!:D if only i can do that everyday.heheh.and,i've learnt my lesson today.im so going to promise to myself that its a must for me to count money whenever i takeover exit.

anyway,sorry darling if i keep asking you the same question or so.maybe im too sensitive yo.(if you ever see this though)

2009-06-09T11:19:00.000-07:00

really dont feel like seeing your face again.

you left a deep huge scar in my heart.

thanks for the supper my dear(:

2009-06-08T11:00:00.000-07:00

its 2:07am now.and im crying like fcuk.it reminds me of two years ago when he just turn his back to me and leave.the moment he step out of the door,tears flow like it has never flow before.i dont want the same thing to happen on me again.i feel like shutting myself up.but on the other hand,i need someone here with me now and give me a big warm hug.im so damn upset.its like,i've no one to talk to.it seems like all my darlings have left me.and im all alone now no one to talk to.fwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!:'(
jacklyn oh jacklyn,why is your life this sad at this moment?:'(

darling,feiyan,jessica,lee,melissa,peishan,i need you guys right now:'(

2009-06-08T09:31:00.000-07:00

______ said that : i think you've changed. and my reply was : i guess so?chill man.people around me also changes,even you.lol.

anyway,i really hope that it wont happen again like how it was that time.my back hurts like wtfish.argh!and,randomly,i think britney's radar is a very addictive song.lol.

我身騎白馬走三關我改換素衣過中原放下西涼沒人管我一心只想王寶釧~

i love,i miss :(

2009-06-05T13:26:00.000-07:00

Sentosa Part 2!:D

that's mk's foot-print!

simpang just now was full of laughter!:D

2009-06-04T10:56:00.000-07:00

Sentosa trip(part one) FYI,image supdup heavy!

as you can see,peishan is the only one getting ready.lol.

monyets rock yo!

maciam celebrity sey!LOL!

fyi,they are trying to make a mermaid.but it ended up as a fish.lol.

focus on the lens!

mono-face!-.-

he seemed like he's posing as a model in front of the camera yo

yes,we're burying our foot ourselves!:D

me and helmet!:D

when monyets gets together!:D

H1B3!

peishan!your helmet got hole!LOL!

hear no evil,see no evil,speak no evil

mons inc.!but where's b1 and b2?:(

monyet panjat pokok feat.m2,m4

the power of 5!:D

su looks happy!:D

ignore my fringe!

like mum and daughter.LOL!and the sad thing is the daughter looks so fake!

student vs tourist.LOL!

i laughed when i saw this!LOL!

part two will be up tomorrow!:D

2009-06-03T08:50:00.000-07:00

sentosa today was quite fun though.pictures will be up soon!(:

IM SO SAD.THEY ARE GOING TO WATCH MOVIE W/O ME TMR.CAUSE I GOT WORK.PLUS I DONT WATCH THOSE SHOW AND YET THEY CHOSE THE SHOW.SIAN.BUT ANYWAY,I CANT WATCH ALSO.NVM.FORGET IT.BYE.UPSET YO.AISHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

sometimes,the way you talk,idk whether you're kidding or you're serious about it.sian.

2009-06-02T10:43:00.000-07:00

i just did the facebook mask quiz and here's the result:

Your mask is Beauty. You are beautiful inside and out. You aren't too aware of your beauty, although all the people around you are. There are times when you feel like you're wearing a mask, but no one around you can notice the difference with or without it. You may feel vulnerable at times, but you usually get through it. You sometimes wish you had someone to help you through those tough times, but you are always hopeful and don't give up easily. People who first meet you notice your beauty oat a glance, but most people notice it when they get to really know you.

so,should i be happy?

p.s. its getting deeper.am i suppose to stop myself from falling in it?

2009-05-31T08:03:00.000-07:00

IM 52% MENTALLY UNSTABLE!:D

2009-05-29T04:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KHAI!:D

2009-05-28T11:55:00.000-07:00

Tertutup sudah pintu .. pintu hatiku
Yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya untukmu
Kini kau pergi dari hidupku
Kuharus relakanmu walau aku tak mau
Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi
Tak ada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi
Dengarlah matahariku suara tangisanku
Kubersedih kerna panah cinta menusuk jantungku
Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku
Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukan waktu
Berjuta warna pelangi di dalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi
Takada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

Matahariku,i love!:D

2009-05-28T11:15:00.000-07:00

i guess if this continues,we'll end up not meeting for probably a month?sigh.double sigh.
anyways,THEY are sending granny to the old folks home.im upset(like double duh!).but,no matter what i say how much i say,things wont change.it has been 'finalised' by the 'adults'.if you're wondering why i put the 'adults' is because i dont think they deserve me to address them nicely/properly.pushing everything to my dad,letting my dad 'clean those shit'(like what we say kio sai),saying they have no money to pay and stuffs.i think their EXCUSES are all BULLSHITS!if YOU think that im rude,and complain to your parents,i can just tell you straight into your face that,I DONT BLOODY GIVE A DAMN ABOUT IT!(: yes,YOU!anyway,i did tried talking to parents about letting granny stay over,but,they kept quiet and sorta refused(my mum),simply because she felt that its unfair and blahblahblah.i really cant imagine granny staying in the old folks.and i cant bear to let her stay there.sigh. :(

my eyes really hurts yo:(

2009-05-27T10:50:00.000-07:00

IM SO EGGCITED AND LOOKING FORWARD TO NEXT WEDNESDAY AND FRIDAY!:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MANGKOK!:D

2009-05-26T11:31:00.000-07:00

new link!:D
some of you might be thinking : whats with the link?onetwothreeone?
well,its actually decemberthirtyone in number form!(:
yeap,i've got two blog if you've seen my complete profile.i know my links are lame.but,oh wells,who cares?i loike!:D the other one is a private blog about me myself and i(like duh!).so,dont even think of viewing that blog cause its only for me to view it(and blog)!:D will keep both active though(: