hey yo,yes,he confessed to me the other day.i was shocked,but yet,not surprised.and yes,i told him i do like him too.he's nice.he makes me smile and laugh all the time.today,he emo-ed because i was cold to him.am i suppose to be glad or whateveryoucall?now,im wondering,what is he going to tell me tmr,and what im suppose to tell him tmr about today.

rarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.people are telling me : jac,you are falling for him. jac,you're in love with him alr.
and i feel like,huhhhhhhhhh.i dont want!as in.im scared.im afraid.because of ___ y'know.
like arghhh.
and he too,is afraid of falling in love again.
sigh.two person who are afraid of 'love' likes each other(more than a like though).how arh?eeeeeeeeeeshhhhhhhh!
there are lotsa qns in my mind now.i know i shouldnt be worrying and thinking about all these stuffs.but,y'know,cant help it.
shall see how things go tmr yaw.sigh.

its rather upsetting when i was told about it.but,its okay.well,this is life.people comes and goes.life is never fair.so what if you're happy now?there will still be lotsa difficulties waiting for you ahead.i've learnt to take things easy,to chill more after what happened to me the previous month.i must be glad for what im given and not whine about what im not given.although there are certain things that makes me cant help whining.but still,the same old sentence.life is never fair.so,jac,just smile(:




my darlings,no matter what happens,be it the past,present,or the future,i still thank god to let me know you girls.i might not be in the group anymore or y'know.but still,im glad to have many happy moments with you girls back then(:

last week,had dnd and chalet.dnd was fun because of the helium balloon.lol!other than that,it was alright.i got a dora luguage(pink) for the lucky draw!when i was receiving the prize,i was like,am i supposed to cry or to laugh?i ask them:i want a DORA luguage for what?what am i suppose to do with it? and kelvin replied:you can go batam with it! LOL!wth right!?!but khai said:okay what.at least you got something!:D true though(: pictures will be up soooon,when im not lasieeeeeee!:D




p.s. are you a gift from god to wipe away all my tears and sadness?

as time goes by,i feel that im actually not needed by anyone.everyone can live happily w/o me yo.if you guys think that im being emo,i am though.give me some time to chill kay.



p.s. i have to move on

i had a sucky month.really down on my luck.Fuck it!

Fuck my life!arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

so many things happened in my life recently.my life's screwed.i've got so much to do,yet so little time.i really hate myself.i hate myself for my character,for being a tardy queen,for being a useless friend,for being a useless daughter.i know i really really need to change,for my laziness,for my late-ness,for my attitude,for everything.fuck.what have i been doing?arghhhhh.im really on the verge of banging my head my the wall!fwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!:'(

sorry jess for being late that day.i know you're still piss though.really sorry.
sorry peishan for everything.you should know what im referring to though.really sorry.



see,im really good at pissing people off.i've pissed two of my friends off.sigh.i need to change!:'(

okay bye.