so much to say.
but yet,
idk how to start.
its too much.


anyways,
people always say,
jac,you must understand.try giving in.
you needa know blahblahblah
you needa understand that blahblahblah.
i know.
i know i have to understand.
thats why i kept quiet and indirectly forced myself to do things that i dont feel like doing.

people will think,
you can just voice out ma.no one's forcing you.
sigh.
but,so what if i voice out?
will things change?
will it make things/situations/people better?
the answer is,
a big F no.
so,just chill and give in(:
true?
thats why,
by shutting my mouth/myself up,
its da best yo!
oh ya,i really agree that
the lesser things you know,
the lesser 'burden' you needa carry.
in short,
its less stressful.

aishh.
whatever.
shhhhhhhhhhh!

shut up!:X

met lee melissa and jess for dinner at simpang just now.
lee is super crasieeee today.full of crap still though
.oops!:O
anyways,left simpang at nearly 10.
went 511 for 'supper with love then,mummy came down to join us.
chill,chat,smile,laugh with them.
send love to the bus stop at 11+ then back home.
w o w.my mum loves him.yay!:D
will be seeing him tomorrow.double yay!:D


on the other hand.sigh.i have to tahan with some people.aish.nvm.chill jac!tahan and smile!:/
i dont like,dont want to fake it.but this time round,i have to.aishh!smile - > :/

i hate hate hate that kindaf feeling.i dont like dont like dont like that kindaf situations.aishhhh!
i have to chill chill chill and fake fake fake to smile smile smile.yes!its like wearing a mask!arghh!
CHILL!F!


on a positive side,i'll be meeting my darlings and love for dinner tomorrow!woohoo!:D
look forward!:D

its 4:30am now.
went for supper at simpang after work with love just now.
chill and chat then home!(:
well,all i can say is,
look forward!:D
and,
loving you more and more as time goes by yo.no joke!:D
will be meeting darlings later on!:D
look forward!;)




nervous
afraid
happy
glad
hoping
:/

so,dinner yesterday at love's house was great!(:
i love homecooked food yo!:D
his mum is nice!i loike~!nice to talk to too(:
and kept treating me food,food,and,food~

today,he came to meet me for dinner during my break!:D
accompanied me for an hour during work too(:
superduper happy to see his damn cute face!wahah!:O
and,i'll be seeing him tomorrow during work yo!woohoo!:D
2pm faster come!so that i can see my lao gong's face~!

dear,im awaiting for fillintheblanks yo!:D

i love this song!and i had goosebumps when she sang!:O
Listen
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uBkDkqaH-xk

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release
Oh, the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen
Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened, there is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, I'm screaming out and my dreams'll be heard
They will not be pushed aside on words
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen
Listen, I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't
Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but I will complete
Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own, my own

im wondering how i should feel after knowing that.hmm,but,nvm.none of my business yo.

anyways,met love yesterday to ecp for cycling!:D
fun!i loike!but!tiring.my ass is numb.better now though.

looking forward to everyday(:

met love today!:D
so,went to gabriel's 21st chalet at changi,went to chill after that.
pictures shall talk!:D

ni na me teng wo,bu ai ni ai shui?:O

i got a cute boyfriend!:D
something really funny happened today.and i was banned from posting out on my blog yo.
hahah!
ask me if you wanna know!:D LOL!


he's cute!im cute too!so together,we're double cutieee!:O :D

sigh.nvm me.only me,myself,and i,know whats wrong.well,its okai!chill!

i always say,you never voice out,how you want people to know how you feel?whats wrong,and stuffs.
it might be misunderstanding?who knows?

but now,no point explaining,whateveryounameit already.its useless yo.




the used to be(s)

as what my fb status stated,not talking much/not going craiseee like before,doesnt mean that im in a foul mood or whateveryounameit.its just that my brain is growing.sigh.i know.i need to smile MORE.chill MORE.more,more,and MORE.never mind.

ohyes,if anyone out there got job that offers you for 6/hour,please let me know yo.heh.i need duit!!!
andandand,one more thing.if you guys see transformers t-shirt,with the bling bling logo,let me know PLEASE!!tyvm yo!:D

woohoo!imma happy girl yo!wahahaha!finally got my watch today.went shopping around at ms and suntec today.manage to get a few things.went to store and,today's definitely not a good day there.oh wells,hope tmr will be a better day yo.

have been meeting my hubby this few days.yes,i see his face every single day and yet i still miss him. :O so,went for dinner after his work and back home at around 10:30.
he'll be meeting me for my dinner break tomorrow yo!yay!:D and next week,i'll be seeing him everyday too.wahahaha!

if you're wondering : do you love him that much?why?
hmm,simply because its just him(: he's one who worries about me more than myself and himself.
and of course,he's sweet!(:
i'll never forget what he told me that day.
he said : 你疯我会陪你一起疯.你cui,我会比你更cui.
and his eyes was teary when he said that.
because of some things that happened,when he told me this,i was touched(duhh),and i almost cry.but i know i cant.cause i know he'll tear together with me.it happened before.so,yup.(:


i love you yo!:D